It's Day 2 of the WEGO Health Activist Writer's Month Challenge. (Thanks to Marie, I'm writing a blog a day about health for the entire month of April.)
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"Today it is enough to make a shadow." —Gretal Ehrlich
There have been many times during my cancer journey when I have felt that just making a shadow was arduous. Had I heard this quote during some of those times, I may have more easily let go of some of the guilt associated with not accomplishing what I set out to do that day.
Pre- and post-cancer, I always had a to-do list running in my head. Though my list is much shorter these days, it still exists. And sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything on it. I don't want to be responsible for anything or anyone other than me. And I have learned that that is absolutely, positively A-OK.
What's not OK is feeling bad about it. That's when the "shoulds" come into play. You know: "I should be doing this" and "I shouldn't have eaten that." As my friend Shannon says, "There I go 'shoulding' all over myself again." That always makes me laugh. And it makes me realize that honoring my feelings is as much a part of my recovery as doing my exercises or taking a nap or eating enough protein.
Because some days, it really is enough to make a shadow.