Saturday, December 31, 2011


I started this blog back in April as a cathartic way for me to deal with The Big C. I wasn't writing for anyone in particular; I wasn't writing to keep friends or family updated. (Few people even knew I had started a blog.) My goal all along was to simply tell my tale in all it's gory glory, and eventually sync up my story to my life in "real time" by year's end.

Well, that hasn't happened. In part because I am distracted; in part because I am tired. But mostly because I am a very slow writer.

Me on my favorite hiking trail. (Copyright © 2011 The Big C and Me)
I debated whether to fast-forward to what is happening right now. Or write the Reader's Digest version of "The Big C and Me." But that would involve skimming over certain road blocks and challenges, which wouldn't be fair (or truthful) to you — or to me.

So my goal for 2012 is to continue to unravel the details of my cancer experience as it happened (vs. as it is happening). And on that you have my word. Albeit a very slow one.

Happy New Year!


  1. Renn, I am right there with you trying to unravel what happened as opposed to what is happening. It feels like I have all the puzzle pieces spread out on the table, but now need to assemble them! And I am too tired to do it! Happy New Year's! We know it has to be better than 2011 :-) Best, Lindsey

  2. happy new year renn...
    lots of love :O)

  3. Healthy new year to you Renn!

    I'm going to start a Sarcoma blog next year, to document my past 5 years. Not just for me but for other sarcoma patients to know what the "roller coaster ride" is like and what we're all in for living with a rare cancer. The emotional side of the story along with the physical ordeal.

  4. Hi Renn,
    However you decide to write no your own pace you will have those of us looking forward to reading what you write. When I began it was for me about me and I really needed that outlet.
    I still do, There have been times I haven't written in a couple of weeks. If I don't I have a million thoughts racing through my mind it feels like I have to get them out..
    Have a Happy New Year Renn!!

    Love Alli XOX

  5. Lindsey: It is like a puzzle, that is so true... and I'm not alone in my feeling so tired! ;-) Happy 2012. Yes it's gotta get better than 2011!

    Anonymous: Same back at ya!

    SJN: I look forward to your new blog... it is needed! Keep us posted!

    Alli: Thanks my dear! You too!!

  6. Renn - Looking forward to moving forward. I have not blogged in a very long time myself. Sometimes because I too am a slow writer. Sometimes because there is just not enough hours or energy through the day. Sometimes, I just don't want to have to look cancer in the face each and every day. xxoo

  7. TC, there really aren't enough hours in the day. When I'm too busy, I can't get everything done that I want to. When I am resting and healing, I can't get everything done that I want to. I am working on loosening the need to get things done! ;-)

    You're right: Writing about cancer means having to look it in the face. I am not always up for it either.

    Peace in 2012!

  8. Yes, please keep unraveling and writing, at whatever pace suits you. All the best to you in the New Year.

  9. Renn, I had to laugh. I'm a super slow writer, too. Not to mention I started my blog more than a year after diagnosis, so I had lots of catching up to do and often feel quite guilty for not writing more, but you know what? It is what it is. Write it, share it all, however you see fit. No pressure. We're here. Happy New Year!

  10. Stacey, you are right... it is what it is and we write what (and when) we write! You immediately made me feel less guilty! Thank you. ;-)

  11. I'm a slow writer too, or as I prefer to call it, a reflective writer! I generally skip around with subject matter. Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing... but it's how I operate. Looking forward to another year of reading your blog. Thanks for writing it. Thanks for reading mine too. I appreciate it.

  12. Nancy, a reflective writer is a much better term. I like it! Keep reflecting! I look forward to your reflections as well. ;-)


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